The Before, The After and The Now

And now for the second scariest experience of my life: the “before” pictures.

The very nature of “before” implies an “after” and by posting these pictures I’m staking a claim on my future. So what of the 1,000 miles between before and after? This is a battle won by inches – both literally and figuratively. According to the BMI chart, I should weigh between 115 and 145 – that’s a minimum of 188 lbs to lose. Whew. While 145 on the scale is a noble goal, for now, I commit to losing 10% of my body weight: 30 lbs by July 1. That will be my after – which, on July 2, will become another before.

To be honest (and let’s face it, that’s what this is all about), I don’t like setting that solid goal on a solid timeline. I feel foolish, almost. The inner critic is shouting loud and clear: only an idiot would declare that kind of goal publicly. What if you don’t make it? You have already embarrassed yourself beyond the point of return. These people are going to watch you take a faceplant. Why are you doing this? You’re just attention seeking. People are going to hate you.

My inner critic is an asshole.

So, here they are, for all to see, my before pictures at:

Weight: 329.6 lbs
Bust: 56″
Waist: 53″
Hips: 60″

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Love and Light,


18 thoughts on “The Before, The After and The Now

  1. What a remarkable woman you are Camie. Remember transformation starts from the inside out. I have struggled with weight most of my adult life and I am only figuring this out now, in my 60th year on this earth. (Talk about a slow learner!) You are already way ahead of me girl!

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    1. Thank you Lesley. I am with you 100% on transformation from the inside out. The path that led me here goes far beyond “eating too much at dinner.” It’s rooted in my body, mind and soul. Welcome to my journey, I look forward to walking with you 🙂


  2. I love your outfit! It’s all about the outfit lol! With you all the way on the journey, Camie. You are brave, strong and a great writer. Thank you for allowing me to witness your journey. It’s learning for everyone of us and I appreciate the privilege of being able to cheer you on and support you Thank you Camie

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  3. Here we go! Yes, 10lbs. A month … You can do it. It will be a slower start but once you get some momentum and start to see the numbers go down, that will motivate you.


    1. Thanks Kenji! The first few days are always fun as “water weight” comes off. I’ll be developing the actual strategies over the next few days 🙂


  4. I suspect that the bigger battle will be a mental one. What you really need is a before and after picture of your state of mind.


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